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Name: Paul
Country: Canada
Birthday: 5/28/1985
Gender: Male
Interests: Sleeping, drawing, eating, playing online games, sleeping
Occupation: Student
Industry: Business
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Member Since:
8/2/2003
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| Solving this jigsaw puzzle and posting about this sweepstakes for Big Red makes me eligible for free Xanga Premium for life...  | | |
| How I hate studying for exams... Good luck to everyone, god knows we'll
need it! So here I sit reading for the exam I'm about to have tommorow
and it all suddenly makes sense, studying was developed by people who
truely enjoy in torturing other people. Think about it, whats the point
of studying? Wouldn't it be better if it all was like apprentiship, we
learn things faster and we deal with ACHUALLY things that occur... I
think I need sleep.
I think I rather enjoy the rain these days, even though I really want
to hit the hills for some skiing. Thinking back about it there was a
line that I red once... I think it went something along the lines of
this...
"The rain reunits the sky and earth that were forever prohibited to meet..."
**song of the moment**
Rie Fu: Life is like a boat
Nobody knows who I really am
I never felt this empty before
And if I ever need someone to come along
Who’s gonna comfort me and keep me strong?
We are all rowing the boat of fate
The waves keep on coming and we can’t escape
But if we ever get lost on our way
The waves will guide you through another day...
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| Wow... its been ages since I blogged. School is getting in the way of
many things! Taking four heavy loaded writing courses which already
spares me no time for things and on top of that I've been trying to get
a job other than a tutor haha... I changed majors to Psychology and
most likely will specialize in it if I can... Well its pretty
interesting except for some chapters.
As of entertainment... not much to say, saw a few new movies like SAW,
Incredibles, National Treasure, and Grudge. I really want to see the
new Alexander movie but... the film is 3hrs long! I don't understand
how anyone can sit on their ass for 3hrs and not have it become numb
haha. Been playing lots of pool and snooker, not to shabby now haha.
Oh, that and I started smoking haha... okay its not that funny.
Nothing really interesting over all except that I'm starting piano
again and hopefully can get a license for teaching at some piano
center, joy.. get to work with kids...
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| ya...more ranting time for me..I guess..
I know this is probably the only place where I can put into words about how I'm feeling right now, a place where I can hide from all the reality for a moment. I don't know why things happen to me or what I've done to deserve them. I've always tried my best not to offend anyone or do anything that will harm another person. But sometimes I wonder, admist of all the chaos speeding by as if there wasn't a moment to spare,why I'd have to pretend to be happy, pretend to live a happy life, pretend to be not miserable, and pretend to achually enjoy life.
I don't know why sometimes I would cry myself to sleep feeling so miserable and alone and have to wake up every morning just to pretend to smile to everyone. For all the treasures in the world, I wish nothing but to have a normal family. Not one that tortures every moment I try to share and spend time together as a family. Heck, I know I'm not a very popular person, I know that I'm a hermit and not very much people like me at all, I don't ask for people to remeber down my birthday, but I only wish my parents would achually remember and just call me to say happy birthday. I don't and won't pretend to understand why they don't do it. Or why would my dad deliberatly leave on the day of my birthday...I don't think I ask a lot....for more than these past 5years have I been waiting for them. I'm so tired of wishing...so tired of making stories up about how much my family achually does care about me. I so tired of everything. I want to shout, but nothing comes out. I want to run away but my legs won't go.... | | |
| OH ya.... First Year Done!! 10 days of chillaxing till I gotta go back to summer school lol. Ain't that just lovely, 10 whole days of summer break, but on the brightside whats everyone doing for the summer because I will achually be able to go around and visit people. Anyways remmeeemmmbbbeerrr to give me a caaaalllll when you guys plan to DOOO something lol. Yes, I'm giving hints again. | | |
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